Thoughts...

I know I'm supposed to resting, I have a throat infection but I just discovered the most helpless feeling in the world. Me and my wife are both sick, she has an upper respiratory infection and I have a throat and adenoid infection. my wife told me I shouldn't kiss the babies or even breathe on them because until I get my medication I am contagious, I understand this on a intelligence level, but my heart can hear karly crying downstairs with her grandmother and all I want to do is run down there, take her in my arms and give her all the hugs and kisses she can handle until she give me that wide open toothless mouth smile she does and everything is alright again. But I can't and that's the helpless part, and it's killing me. She's such a sweet baby, my karly, she's little and loud but she is a ton of fun. She loves horsing around and being wiggled about and it's the best feeling in the world to go get her in her crib and the first thing she does is give you that huge smile...it takes my breath away every single time. Katie is definately the more reserved of the 2 and quite frankly may be the sweetest baby ever. She's quiet, really really quiet...yeah she can make her noise every now and again, but sometimes you can give her a toy, and she'll bite on that sucker and play with it and you can forget she's even around...lol. She is starting to come out of her shell lately and if she wants to be picked up now, she raises her arms up high asking you to pick her up and that's also the greatest feeling in the world and also takes my breath away every single time. I don't know what I did to deserve 2 loving, adorable babies and the most understanding wife ever. It must have been in another life, cause in this one, I can be a pain in the a$$, just ask my wife. But she loves me regardless of my stupidity at times and I will be forever grateful for the love she gives me and the family that we have started to build together.I don't know what I expected from having twins. At first when we found out we were having twins I didn't know what to think..2 babies?? at the same time? what are we going to do? After the initial shock and thoughts of leaving home..ha ha ha A peaceful calm came over me, heck my wife is a daycare provider, she took care of 15 two year olds a day, she can handle 2 of our own. and together, mostly her doing, we have done a pretty good job so far, both girls are growing well, karly is a little behind because of her reflux, they are progressing in their age goals, katie has discovered the concept of everything is mine and karly has discovered the way to get her things back from katie is to take them back...lol But it hasn't been as hard as I thought it was going to be, sure I miss sleeping in on off days, and sharing a bed with a 19 lb. girl occasionally can make you sleep at awkward angles and make you feel muscles you've never even knew you had but it's all a giant pleasure when you look into those beautiful eyes and see the love in them and the needing and wanting of your attention or when the first thing you see in the morning is your loving wife next to you and in between the blue eyes of a little girl who's been trying to get your attention for the better part of an hour, scratching you, and doing everything she can because she wants her bottle or just wants you to acknowledge her. It's only a feeling you can get from being a parent and after becoming one, you start to believe all those stupid quotes and cliches you heard before you were a parent and dismissed as just that, stupid quotes and cliches from people who were brainwashed. The truth is, they aren't stupid, they are the god's honest truth and if you want to feel the most incredible feeling in the world, become a parent one day and the day you do will become the best day of your life and then every day after that, becomes the best day of your life